Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Revert to draft

0212 a.m.
I just finished sorting out my previous blog post. So, after coming back from a trip to the past, I have a mixed feeling about certain post. Either to be creep out by my own childishness or sad that I had changed so much in the past 7 years.

Well, I also feel like wanting to comment on my own post after reading them. Those grammar error? *chuckle* Ahh, too young too dumb to realize ðŸŽµ

To be honest, some of them also made me thinking - "ah, I used to dream about doing this kind of thing".

Then, when I look at myself in the present - "wow, I did them. Good job ME"

And some of them does not improve after several years. I still have a hard time keeping my friends. My love life also is getting duller. My personality is jaded. Sometimes I wonder, when did it go wrong?

But, to fully describe recent version of myself, I would say - (1) I still hate my dad (2) I fought with my mom everyday (3) I still have scar from fighting my brother (4) I stopped telling things to my best friend (5) Even today, I got annoyed of hearing excuses from my friends (6) Yesterday I was offended by my previous kindergarten teacher questions and lastly, (7) a guy I liked wear the shirt I bought for him but that just make me realize even more that we are not in any relationship.

Well, I think that's enough self loathing for today. One thing I learned after reading my old post is that I easily get gloomy and that's just wrooong ðŸ˜¶


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